Juggling Act

Ya know how when you've got a lot of balls in the air, one of them is bound to go splat against the pavement? Well this week, writing was the ball that went splat. A big messy splat of disappointment, headaches, and annoyances. I know I should probably let myself off the hook and give me some kind of credit having already written 24k this month, but I've got a yearly goal to hit 500k, and to do that, I need to hit 250 by the end of the month. I'm currently at 218,153, which means I'm failing.

I don't like failing. The reason I don't like failing is because instead of giving me motivation to do better, it makes me want to give up entirely. I'm aware that kind of mentality is a problem. I'm working on it.

And my way of working on it, is to highlight the things I DID manage to get done instead of writing. Take this week for example. Instead of writing, I was beta reading the other two books in my Against the Grain series from my co-authors. This makes sure that the world is the same in each book and that there are no plotting issues. It's a good thing. A necessary thing. I did a good thing. So I shouldn't feel like a failure.

I also made it to work everyday this week. Which isn't always the easiest when it's the summer and super loud outside my building, making my 8pm nap more difficult than it should be. But I did it. And I'll do it again next week.

I also had quite a few interviews last week, with a follow up tomorrow for a new job. A day job. One that will hopefully pan out so that I can actually sleep at night, have my weekends to myself, and get more writing done.

I also made a few changes to my website, even though adding the progress bar took far longer than I thought it would. But with the help of some really smart friends, I did it. It's good to have smart friends.

These are all good things. It was a really productive week outside of writing. And I say all this to say, it's okay to let a ball drop every now and again, as long as you don't give up. I love writing. I love creating these worlds for you guys, and I have no intention of giving up. And if any of you have dropped a ball this week, tell yourself it's okay. You're allowed. We aren't superhero's, we're just people. And as people, we're allowed to drop a ball.

If you didn't kill anyone, or have a massive break down, consider it a good week. Hell, if you needed that breakdown so you didn't kill anyone, consider it a good week.

We're all just humans, and it's okay to be flawed humans. Don't sell the little accomplishments you make everyday short. We've only got one life, and if we're happy at the end of it, that's all that really matters.

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